Stress eating from PopFnordette's log

I stress eat. That's what I've been doing this weekend basically; I haven't been fasting at all.

My eating is limited in the times of eating by IF; in the content of the food, by my dietitian's requirements; in the amount of the food, by calorie counting.

These past 3 days I've dismissed each and every limitation and ate what I wanted, how much I wanted and when I wanted - which was a lot of junk pretty frequently.

It's disappointing and frightening to realize how easy it is to fall back to stress eating.

I'm stressed because of food limitations. I'm stressed because work is stressful. I'm stressed because I started studying a new programming language. I'm stressed because I'm starting a few extra academic courses this semester. 

Im stressed because I'm overwhelmed by all the future family gatherings, with my brother's return and the holidays and whathaveyou. I'm stressed because I don't know how to eat there. I'm stressed because I'm going to Georgia in a couple of weeks and I don't know how to eat there. How to IF when trekking? I'm stressed because I still didn't find a catsitter. I'm stressed because my cat peed on the bed yesterday night and I haven't even had time yet to wash the bedcover. I'm stressed because I hardly slept. I'm stressed because my a/c isn't working and my landlord is supposed to come tomorrow. I'm stressed because I missed the train and now I'm gonna arrive home super late again.

I stress over the most mundane things - and then I stress about stressing over such ridiculous issues. And the I stress eat.

I know I should come out of it with some epiphany. Some learning experience, some way to grow out of this. I've been stress eating for the majority of my life now, and I have yet to find a way to pull myself out of that habit.

I don't know. I just want to crash down and have someone else live my life.

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By PopFnordette
Added Sep 10 '17


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